Glad I don't know

Sometimes I wonder...

If finding out what I was having would make my life easier.

Let's face it, if I knew, I would...

• only have to sort through names for 1 gender.
  
• give all my baby clothes for the other gender away.
• be able to decide who was sharing rooms with who for the unforeseeable future.
• not have to listen to my kids speculate.
  

But then again if I knew...

• my kids would probably be a little disappointed either way.
  
• it was my last boy/girl, and that would be sad.
• I would never have another baby boy/girl, and that would be hard.
• it would make things more final.

Even though in some ways things would be easier, in others they would be harder. This way I don't have to deal with all the emotions until I have the cute little baby in front of me.

Plus, talk about a surprise, if it's a girl we'll think "we knew it", if it's a boy we'll be like "are you sure?"

John and I pretty much think it's a girl, but I keep referring to it as a "he" or "him". Basically if it's a boy, we'll be shocked, my kids all want a boy, but I know they'll be happy with a girl.

Either way, I'm still standing my ground.